It’s always difficult to leave a job and start a new one. Not everyone does…not everyone can, but yesterday marked my last day at Picturepark.
Since announcing my departure a couple weeks ago I have gone through a variety of emotions. Sadness for leaving a team and company I have enjoyed working with, excited for starting a new experience with a company HQ in Milwaukee. Also anxious, wondering again if I am making the right decision for my family. People often times get comfortable in their jobs…settle for the easiest path. I do not.
I always look at the big picture and think about where I want to be 5, 10, 20 years from now. This new opportunity allows me the ability to develop and grow professionally for a longer period of time, with a great company.
There are things I will miss about Picturepark. The people and working with some of the leading minds in the industry, the ability to work from anywhere in the world, working closely with partners on 6 major continents, the travel. And there are also the things I probably won’t miss quite as much. Such as 12-14hrs work days (sometimes 6 days a week), averaging 90-120 emails a day, and the non-stop pace that comes with working for a global software technology company. Don’t get me wrong, a lot of these things are exciting, and motivating. Working for a company that is developing and using cutting edge technology is badass. We are way ahead of the curve compared to anybody else in the industry…but that position comes at a price.
At Picturepark I was one of the few employees who was married, who had kids, who was in their 30’s. What I realized is that by working in this type of environment, you can easily fall victim to giving up everything that means something to you (that isn’t work related). This is not to say I didn’t enjoy my job, I did, but it came at a cost. That being said, the experience will stick with me for a lifetime. I have made friends across the globe, I look at the world differently now. When you are exposed to different cultures, different countries on a daily basis, you gain a new and refreshing perspective on the world. We are all different, but we are all uniquely the same.
Going forward I will take these priceless experiences with me and work to make the biggest impact I can for my new employer. Life is a journey and that’s what I love…the people you meet, the relationships you build and the positive impact you leave behind.
Working from home is nice in the winter!
San Francisco is blue.
Behind the scenes at Pixar was cool!
Off to Switzerland…
Walking to work in Switzerland was relaxing.
Hanging out with some Swiss co-workers
Just a standard To-Do list for the day…
Oh what’s that you say…waking up to some emails?
This will keep me going :)
A 1hr business call and this is what I return to?…who knew I was so popular?!
I forgot to cut my hair this past year…
Sometimes Cedrina likes to help me work on the weekends…
Goodbye home office…you were a good friend.
As I sit here and think about what to say on this milestone day I find myself without words…
This past year has been so different than any other. So different in that I am different. My job is different. My outlook is different. My priorities are different. I sometimes wonder if a previous version of myself would even know who I am today. To some this may be scary, but to me I find it as a point of inspiration…a process of human evolution. It is not without its challenges and I don’t believe everybody knows what their purpose in life is. But for me this is a path…a path I follow with caution, but faith. Faith knowing that the journey I am on leads to the future I want to create for my family. You may ask yourself what this has to do with Cedrina’s 2nd birthday, and I’ll tell you.
What I have discovered is even though everything around me is changing, I am able to find comfort in both something familiar and something new. Anissa has always been my rock and the person who keeps me in check with reality. To me that is familiar, and a point of strength I value greatly.
What I have found more recently, when I reflect on Cedrina’s 2nd birthday, is that she is the comfort I feel in something new. She is older now, and no longer a silly baby, but a cognizant toddler, who speaks and walks, can express emotions… She talks to me, asks me questions, and comes to me for help. When she’s scared at night or has a bad dream, she yells for me, I hold her, rock her back to sleep, tell her it will be OK. I have come to find comfort in being a part of these experiences, they are shaping me as a person…as an adult.
When I first wrote about being a Dad it was surreal that I could legally be responsible for such a helpless little person. It seemed insane. Yet, here we are 2 years later and we are all doing OK. We are a team of love and support. Anissa supports me when work gets crazy, I do my best to support her when life gets hard, and even though she doesn’t know it Cedrina supports all of us with her unconditional love. The littlest things can simply warm your heart for eternity. When I focus on what gives me comfort, I find the strength to meet the challenges of everyday life. The choices I make and the actions I take, are to cultivate that comfort further…to ensure our family is safe, and happy and together.
Even though this is a rambling mess of a post, the point I hope to get across is that change can happen all around you, but family is a comfortable constant. And that is really what Cedrina’s birthday was about today. We hung out as a family, went for a walk together, measured her height against the wall, played in front of the window, opened some gifts, had a great meal and read some stories. Nothing fancy or over-the-top, just hung-out in our pj’s all day and had some good old quality time together as a family…and it was awesome.
A walk to blow the stink off
Stickers mom left out for Cedrina after nap.
so many choices…
A growing girl!
Fun with a new toy…
reading choices….yes please
snuggles before bed…
Time goes by so fast